TIRED

I get barely and proper rest, I wake up 3 times a night and just lay in bed forever. I feel constantly tired through out the day. I wish I could sleep forever.

I am listening to "Forever" by Alex G, right now. My favourite part of this song is "We can love you, forever and ever," and "I will pull it together, you can love me, forever and ever," something about the lyrics and the music in the background make me love it. It feels like the desire to have love, trying to tell someone you can love them if they just loved you back.

I always get lost in thought when trying to do other tasks, I think about all I could ever write in these blog posts and make them sounds soooo good or emotional, but when it comes to actually writing it, I completely forget every thought, like they never existed. I don't think I have been one to easily write down my thoughts because I keep them to myself in my head so often.

I have this small notebook that I write my to-do lists in sometimes, I often leave so much blank spaces and i come back later and fill it in with random shit, like writing something or drawing random stuff (even though I cannot draw lol). I want to collect things to stick into it, maybe I will do that when this notebook finishes and I get a new one.

goodnight, sakyqai